the sinner in me
2009 Resolutions
Keep studying
Be a great boyfriend, and a good son
Be more all-rounded
Stop shrinking and start growing again
Be able to answer to myself
My Second Wind
I fear stagnation and lack of progress. I fear never reaching my potential and being average. I fear being forgotten. The past. Yesterday's news. I fear giving up and being passed by, going softly into that good night. I fear letting those I love down, letting myself down. I fear settling, giving in to the "that's just the way it is" mindset. I fear dying without leaving my mark. I fear not feeling these fears anymore and just floating along. These fears feed me, they nourish my drive.
I love my fear.
when two men in the family disagree, there's bound to be a clash of egos.
the fallen saint left at 2:30 am
i was looking at some shoes in a men's shop at far east plaza this evening with the girlfriend, and the salesgirl told my girlfriend (instead of me) the price of the shoes. granted that she was in office attire since she just came from work, and i was in a t-shirt, berms, a cap and havaianas because i was playing pool today, but one can infer two things from this incident:
the fallen saint left at 10:02 pm
it's been an incredible first month together with you, and it really doesn't feel like we've only been dating for a month.
the fallen saint left at 11:38 pm
it's been three weeks now, and life has treated us well so far.
the fallen saint left at 7:26 pm
i don't know what to do with my hair.
the fallen saint left at 12:23 am
Sunday, September 28, 2008
there's always a choice
i think i'm old enough to know what i'm talking about, and it's not like i haven't been there and done that before. in fact, i suspect i have more hands-on experience in tonight's subject of debate.it's hard when a person loses an argument, but it's important to be able to take it on the chin and try to understand why he's wrong, instead of stubbornly insisting on being right. the maturity has to be there, and it wasn't today.two grown men disputing each other. it's hard to see either backing down.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
all things sweet
looks like i can look forward to some pampering from now on. haha.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
a month from.
i appreciate all the activities with your friends that you've tried to include me in, and the deliberate way we've gone about certain things in the hope that things will turn out right for the long term. we still go about things like little kids sometimes, but i know we do try, the both of us.i know the challenges that await will be plentiful and may be difficult, but i'm not one to give up without a fight. it's a bit strange trying to juggle various commitments simultaneously, but i'd rather be doing this than be where i was a month ago.in your words: happyhappy (:
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
a different kind of life
today is the first real time during this period that i'm feeling emo. i don't know if it's because class ended on a pretty low note for me, or that the presentation this morning on our research methods project bombed. i'm not keen on going into details.am i still allowed to feel down and upset over such things?won't someone tell me this is just a phase and that i'm getting out of it soon?why can't you see that i just don't want to.
Monday, September 08, 2008
headache
how now brown cow?